not in anything big.. and not with anyone new.
just with myself.
i honestly think this is it. i'm finally going insane. i'm turning into one of those psychotic ex girlfriend types.
i was so happy, for so long, and tonight, it just all came crashing down on top of me.
i can't even bring myself to cry. i just sit here. i figured maybe writing would help, and the such.
i didn't mean to leave as i did, but i don't like to be speaking to people when i'm this way.
if i still did such things, i'd drink myself stupid right now.
it's not going to work. i'm not fucking normal. i shouldn't try. i'm sorry, you.
though you'll probably never read this. it's for the best. yeah.
i'm just going to lay in my bed and pretend none of this happened, now.